Confessions of a Glutton…

Posted by on Jun 10, 2012 | 0 comments

Nesting is in full effect here at the Shadrick home. Markon’s paperwork is being submitted to the US Embassy on Tuesday, and hopefully we are just a few weeks away from bringing him home!

With this nesting, comes purging too….

And with this purging comes some self reflection, and honestly, sadness.

Gluttony (as take from W*k*ped*a): over-indulgence and over-consumption of fooddrink, or wealth items to the point of extravagance or waste. In some Christian denominations, although not stated in the Bible, it is considered one of the seven deadly sins—a misplaced desire of food or its withholding from the needy.

Oh boy…..

I must confess… I am so guilty of gluttony that it is disgusting! And it is SERIOUS! And I don’t mean to jump to conclusions or judge, but I am pretty darn sure that if you live in America, then you are guilty of it too.

Today I decided to clean out my closet. Mind you, I cleaned out my closet less than a year ago. I parted with almost 40 pants/shirts and 3 pairs of shoes, and my closet was STILL jam packed with clothing. Then, less than an hour later I went to pick my outfit for the day, and as I stared at the clothes in my enormous walk in closet, I actually thought to myself “I have nothing to wear”.

That is disgusting.

The single mother of 3 whom we sponsor via YWAM’s Adoption Ministry 1:27 Program is wearing the same clothing in her sponsorship picture taken over a year ago, as she was wearing when I met her in April. Her 2 year old is naked from the waste down in that same photo.

I feel sick.

I then begin to visualize each room in my home, and I feel like crying. How did this happen to us? Honestly, when we bought this house 6 years ago, we really did not want such a big house, but somehow we ended up here and now it is full….

No, not full like a hoarder, but full none the less. Each of our 5 bedrooms and our several family rooms are nicely decorated and want for nothing. Beautiful original art work and family photos cover our walls. Our garage, laundry room and storage room are lined with shelving units which help organize all of the toys, excess decorations, pillows, bedding sets, sporting equipment, clothing, seasonal items, etc…. that we just can’t seem to part with.

And you know what, I pride myself on being frugal and not much of a shopper.  I rarely purchase clothing or anything for myself, and we are pretty good about  not spoiling our kids and only purchasing things they need (such as clothing/shoes when they grow…) and toys/gifts are usually reserved for special occasions. Plus, every single spring we donate or throw away at least a truck load of stuff.

So how is it that we have over-indulged and over-consumed wealth items to the point of extravagance AND waste? How have we lived such gluttonous lives while thinking we were okay?

And why is it so hard to repent? To change?

I am still processing as to what I am to do with these thoughts and reflections, but needless to say it is on days like this that I feel like I am suffocating. Surrounded by plenty, beauty, health, happiness… yet suffocating.


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